Chapter 1 of my crazy ass life

I've been in love with this one guy from day one.  He was a player, and a jerk, and he also stole my heart day after day.  I couldn't even picture being with anyone else considering he was one of the first guys who ever even considered me.  I felt so happy having him, even if it hurt me because I loved him so much that I was scared of losing him.  His name is Josh..and ever since November 1st, I haven't been able to get him off of my mind.