Chapter 2 My Crazy Ass Life

So lets start from the beginning now.
It was Halloween, and I was dressed up as a baby with high pigtails and footie pajamas on.  I decided to go all out considering It was my last year trick or treating because I would be in highschool.
I was with my friends Annika, Claire and...Evelyn.  Evelyn was really good friends with Josh at the time and liked him.  They had "a thing".
Well, after walking around for a while, we walked past Josh's house where he happened to be sitting outside of with his friend Trevor.  They waved and said hi and I could see how happy Evelyn was to see Josh.  Then we kept walking and eventually ran into them again on the other side of town. 
Josh and I were talking and talking and he was shutting Evelyn out..which I felt bad about after I realized it was my fault..
Once he had to leave, I felt my heart drop because I didn't want him to go. I wanted him to stay so we could talk more and i could finally get to know this, what I thought to be, amazing guy.

You make me crazy

I can't help that when Jordan I have a heart beating faster than ever and get butterflies.  No one since Josh has made me do that.  Too bad when I saw Jordan today..he was with Emily. :/

I want someone to chose me..

My best friend, Emily, gets everything.  The body, the face, the personality..and the boys.  More importantly, the boys that I like.  I cry myself to sleep every night wishing that someone would just pick me over her.  Anyone.  but it never happens.  Shes perfect in every way.  Right as I start to get over Josh, we started hanging out with this guy names Jordan.  Hes cute, funny and I had really liked him when I was younger and we use to be good friends.  Of course she had to start talking to him and I even told her how much I liked him and she flirted and hung out with him all the time..until she started to like him.  Now I was just told that he likes her.  My heart is broken again and its always going to happen.  Sometimes I just hate myself so much.  I want to be the girl that everyone wants.  I want guys to think Im pretty and fall for me right when they meet me.  But no..I'm still just that annoying, use-to be fat girl, who guys get made fun of for even talking to.

Chapter 1 of my crazy ass life

I've been in love with this one guy from day one.  He was a player, and a jerk, and he also stole my heart day after day.  I couldn't even picture being with anyone else considering he was one of the first guys who ever even considered me.  I felt so happy having him, even if it hurt me because I loved him so much that I was scared of losing him.  His name is Josh..and ever since November 1st, I haven't been able to get him off of my mind.  

Take a look at the invisible girl

I've always wondered what it was like to be seen.  I don't mean popularity.  I could care less about that.  I have friends..for the most part.  I just want to be seen by the people that mean the most to me.  
1) The guy I've been in love with since we met.
2) My "friends" that really could care less about me..
3) My dad, who seems to act more of a dad to my best friend than to me.